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* Monday, September 26, 2005 *

louisiana

hey everyone, sorry that i've been back for almost a week and haven't updated you on my trip to louisiana yet. i promise it's coming, but its the end of the block and things are really busy, so i'm shooting to write it all down (there's a lot to say!) sometime wednesday afternoon. so look for it then :) i have pictures and everything. it'll be good. w00t.

as for now, i have a paper to write, laundry to put away, a budget to write, about 5 billion emails to send out. so i'll see you all wednesday and we'll call it good, k?

Ria posted at 8:26 PM
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* Tuesday, September 13, 2005 *

it was actually a good day today

it was actually a good day today, yes. i had class this morning and i was dead to the world, as per usual. lunch was alright, then i came back and i had to listen to some musique cadienne pour ma classe et le quatrieme chanson du cd (BeauSoleil) était un waltz and needless to say I didn't make it any further on the cd, because i just kept playing that song over and over. during afternoon class we just played the music, we learned how to two-step and how to waltz. our hostel has live music and dancing every night in the backyard, so we really do need to know about this stuff. after class i bailed for cr, and i went shopping basically. i was in the market for the dvd of hitchhiker's guide and a skirt to dance in, and i found both, plus a pair of awesome pants, some shirts, a cute tank top, and some new 14 gagues for my ears because i was getting seriously sick of my other ones. then i came back, watched the soccer game (we won), and tonight i managed to get my freakin homework done BEFORE MIDNIGHT. this is amazing. so tomorrow i will pack, and we're leaving here at 7 am on thursday. we are completely back to plan a, since now there are no more gas shortages and actual places to stay. so here is a map of the us with all the states i will have been to after my trip in red:


Ria posted at 11:42 PM
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yuuuuck

taking pills with hot dr. pepper is not the best idea in the world. and why the hell am i still up! dammit! plans for sleep foiled again. :? also did not get any of my homework done. i am bad. will do it tomorrow at breakfast if i can manage to pry myself out of bed. although i think this morning i actually will. :) and my coffee cup will runneth over.

Ria posted at 3:21 AM
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* Monday, September 12, 2005 *

what sleep habits?

its late and im not really that tired. i know i should go to bed, yeah. but im not there yet. so in theory i could do homework or something. be productive, ria. if it were colder out i would at least try to get into bed, but its hot and so it isnt really all that tempting at this point. get colder, dammit, i want to use all of my blankets! i want to not be able to get out of bed in the morning because its too cold! blahhhh. oh well. anyway.

Ria posted at 3:54 AM
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* Sunday, September 11, 2005 *

leaving.

as of thursday morning i will be in a van headed on an undetermined route towards lafayette, louisiana. this is good because i could really stand to get out of here for a few days. i am going to learn how to cajun dance, quite possibly try alligator, talk to a lot of people, listen to some good music, give stuff to hurricane survivors. it'll be really hot, but i think it's going to be a really good time.

anyway. im tired, im washing my face and going to bed.

Ria posted at 1:11 AM
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* Friday, September 09, 2005 *

i was taking a shower. the radio station in the bathroom was set on country, and this song was playing as i was drying off

because nothing will depress you like that shit, country music

and the man was talking about the woman of his dreams

and i concluded that there are two kinds of women: those made of all of the things that a companion could ever want; the ones who will find someone who will love and cherish them, take care of them, hold their hand in public because they aren't embarassed to be with you, tell their friends that they love you.
the other kind of woman is one who has a lot to offer but there's some kind of glitch...nobody picks up the reciever, the ones who try but continue to be lied to. the women that constantly hear "you're really cool/pretty/smart/amazing, but...". there is always a but. these women are constantly shown love and discarded once their shininess wears off.

men will take a chance with type one. they see them and they love them.
for those of us that are type two, we are no man's dream come true. there is no absolution for us. we really should know better but we constantly perk up at the thought of someone showing us love. and then it falls apart.

we really should know better. all of us who remain the dirty little secrets of the world, constantly having to sew ourselves back up like sally in the nightmare before christmas.

i'm only 20 years old, this cant be as good as it gets..

Ria posted at 2:15 PM
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looking for a fight

i don't know what the hell my problem is today. i was fine until i got to lunch, but once i got there and sat down, something snapped and i got annoyed. then really annoyed. and then i just got pissed, and i have no idea why, but i am practically looking for a fight right now (in the figurative sense). i am to the point of desecrating just about anyone or anything (verbally). i wouldn't take anything out on anyone physically, 1 because i'm a runt, and 2 because everything when im depressed or angry that comes out physically is inflicted on me. so whatever happens to me is just whatever, but if you read this, know that today is not the day for pushing my buttons, because today they will push back. i am so not in the mood right now. i am beyond angry, no i don't know why, yes it is a big combination of reasons, yes i feel like throwing things, yes i'm nuts and you should all know that about me by now.

what the fuck is wrong with me

Ria posted at 12:24 PM
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* Wednesday, September 07, 2005 *

bete comme un chou?

no one knows what is going on with our trip to louisiana. we could be going, not going, going but not staying in a hotel, not going but possibly going to illinois and missouri, going and taking helpful things down with us, or not going anywhere at all, ever. nooooobody knows. and just for clarification, we're not going to new orleans, and the place we're going is a good five hour drive from nouvelle orleans. lafayette sustained no damage and is closer to the texas border than eastern louisiana. so here is the actual truth of the matter, from someone who is actually in the class.
1. the administration isn't sure as that they really want us to go, mainly for the danger factor. the dean of the college cares more about us making a good decision one way or the other.

2. reasons for still going: the people in lafayette apparently really enjoy the trips that cornell takes down every year, which could be good because it would be a constant. it could be good because it would show them that despite everything, people still want to visit them and learn about their culture. it would be funding their local business, which is good. we are also really considering if we go taking things that the places down there really need, like shelter supplies and things like that. it would really help us in the context of the class to be able to go because the class is based on francophone cultures in north america, and those are basically Acadian and Cajun. We can't really go to New Brunswick for a five day trip, and there's already an entire class that spends the whole time in Montreal. So this would really help because we could learn now about Cajun culture.

3. reasons for not going: the tentative plan would be staying in a hotel in mississippi for a night on the way there, which would displace some of the people from new orleans that are using that hotel as their home. we most definitely DO NOT want to do that. so, we could technically drive the whole way through to louisiana, that's fine. however, once we get to lafayette, we would no longer be able to stay in the hostel we planned on because there are evacuees staying there as well and it would obviously be wrong to push them out. however (again), my professor's other home is down there, and we could all stay there, which we're fine with. there are two professors staying there who worked at a university in new orleans but knew that this trip would be happening and have the possibility of being able to spend the weekend we're there with another friend in the area. our safety is not an issue, things are fine down there. other disadvantages: we aren't sure a bunch of distraught people would really want people like us coming down, even if we do want to help while we're there. also, gas is a huge problem the further south you go. not only does it get more expensive, but the closer you get to louisiana itself, the harder it is to find and the longer you have to wait for it. our trip budget would take a hike, and the last place we would really be able to fill up would be memphis, which would put us in lafayette with around a quarter of a tank of gas. that's all well and good, but we have to be able to get back out of new orleans, and if we only have a quarter of a tank of gas, that won't get us back to memphis.

4. other options: we could go on a french architecture etc. tour through some places in missouri and illinois, however none of us in the class are particularly psyched about that option...we've been planning on louisiana for probably a year now. we could take another trip at a later time and take more people with us, possibly do something over spring break, just reschedule in general.

5. summary: we don't want to displace people, and what i've been getting from our discussions is that we as a class would really like to just do whatever's best for the people down there. while it would be a bummer to not get to go, if that's what happens, that is what happens. if the school wont let us go, we can't do anything about that, but if we can go, we'll definitely make the best of it.

hope this clears things up. btw, i actually got all of my homework for the night done before midnight, which is amazing. i didnt put anything off until tomorrow morning, or just not do it. i actually.did.my.homework. and while that shouldn't be a big deal, for me, it is. schwing.

Ria posted at 12:50 AM
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* Tuesday, September 06, 2005 *

ah!

merci, toute le monde, pour votre patience avec mon blogue. aprés presq'un an avec le meme format, une change était necessaire. alors, j'ai decidé hier soir à developper mon chanson prefere d' Alice in Chains (et oui j'ai fait ca deja) et je pense que cet format est meilleure pour maintenant. merci, merci merci.

translation: thank you, everyone, for your patience with my blog. after almost a year with the same format, a change was necessary. so, i decided last night to work with my favorite alice in chains song (and yes i'd done that already) and i think this format is better for now. thank you, thank you thank you.

*disclaimer: firefox doesn't like foreign characters that much, so some things may show up weird or not at all.

Ria posted at 1:12 PM
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* Sunday, September 04, 2005 *

its true

i am disposable.

Ria posted at 6:37 PM
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* Saturday, September 03, 2005 *


my dye job kicks ass. well that and the five or so inches that came off. Posted by Picasa

Ria posted at 7:43 PM
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* Thursday, September 01, 2005 *

i didn't hurt myself...but

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of s**t
On my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feeling disappears
You are someone else
I am still right here
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

Remixed by:trent reznor

Ria posted at 12:00 PM
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